The Time Has Come

I can't even wrap my mind around it yet.

Really all day- everyday- she'll be with someone else?!

Not me?

But this is what I do, this is what I've done for the last five years...

I've taken care of her. I've played with her.

I've put bandaids on her boo boos.

I've hugged her. Fed her. Talked to her.

I've answered her thousands of questions.

Well, okay maybe I've only answered 1/3 of them.
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So, did I play with her enough?

Did I engage with her enough?

Did I take her on enough outings?

Did I discipline her enough? Did I display patience?

Does she really know deep in her soul that

I LOVE HER and I am so proud to be her mom?

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As silly as it may sound this is what has raced through my mind

over the course of the last two weeks.
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This is a big milestone. She is starting her school days.

She will be making friends,

and starting her life outside of me and the home.

She will be making more choices on her own.

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While I've struggled with these thoughts God has consistently

reminded me this week of the

promises He has written over her life.

That HE will cover her.

That HE always watches over her.

That HE has a perfect plan for her.

That HE will never leave her or forsake her.

That HE delights in her. She has favor with HIM.

That HE is her protector.

That HE is her friend.

So, thank you JESUS. For loving me. For loving Bella.

For standing in the gap.

For covering all the mistakes I have made as a mom.

For being perfect while I am imperfect.

There is Peace.

So I'm ready. She's ready. It's gonna be good.
Here's to the next season.

Cheers.

Bella and Mrs. Decker. On Meet the Teacher.

Bella wanted me to write this on her pink paper,
so she could hang it on the door.